Thirty four weeks pregnant today and the vivid nightmares have returned. I decided to do a bit of research into pregnancy dreams and it turns out the reason why we have more vivid dreams, is due to waking more frequently throughout the night for toilet visits or having to change to a more comfortable position in bed. It just happens that we are waking during our REM (rapid eye movement) stage of sleep, this is typically when we dream. My dreams are more like nightmares. Recently I have rescued my son from falling off a cliff edge, jumped into fast flowing rivers to save him and then been chased and hunted down by a tiger in a jungle. Upon digging a little deeper online, I read that when you experience stress and anxiety throughout the day you are more likely to have bad dreams at night as emotions play a role. Therefore, vivid nightmares are more common among post-natal women due to the stress and anxiety which can be caused daily by becoming a new mum (I don’t look forward to that). I wouldn’t say that I have any fear or anxieties over birth just now but I guess I do still feel a bit stressed with daily life challenges, feeling tired and still not being organised for baby’s arrival. Hopefully that should change in the next week though with my son starting the school playgroup and final bits of furniture being set up in the nursery. I’m sure in my last update I mentioned about the babies positioning being transverse. Thankfully at my last midwife appointment she confirmed that baby is now head down. This was a huge relief, hopefully she stays put so a homebirth is still on the cards for me. I did feel a big shift in movement a few days prior to my appointment. I suddenly felt very weighed down and even questioned if I could potentially be at risk of a cervical prolapse (which is very rare and me being dramatic). Next week my wonderful midwife is coming for a home visit. This is usual practise when planning a homebirth. The midwife will have a look at where I plan to have the birthing pool, the space available for her to work and go through all necessary protocol and information. I’m trying to stay positive that I will get the birth I desire again; however, it doesn’t help when at each midwife appointment I’m told of possible obstacles which may prevent me birthing at home. For example, in my area there are only ever 2 midwifes on call at any given time. This means that if there are 2 women labouring at home, then the person who phoned first would get the homebirth support, and the other woman would need to make their way into the hospital. Apparently, this doesn’t happen very often, but I would be very disappointed and angry if this was the only reason to stop me when the time came. Hips and back have been achy lately, but seeing the Chiropractor every 2 weeks is helping minimise the discomfort and keeping me mobile. Why I never visited a Chiropractor till now is beyond me! We are no further on with baby names, I will have to resign to the fact that baby will be born nameless until one is agreed upon. Who knew it would be so hard to agree on a name? I don’t remember it being so hard last time around with boy names. We had 3 names from around the half way pregnancy point last time. We do have a couple of names which are 'maybes' but I’m aware they may not go down well with others. Not that I worry about pleasing people, but I suspect I would be able to tell right away by facial expressions and it would annoy me. With just 6 weeks left till my estimated due date I still have a lot to organise and buy for the homebirth, but I’m sure I will get there. This weekend I will be purchasing final items for the birth and packing my ‘just in case’ hospital bag. The final countdown is well and truly on. So over pregnancy, very much ready to meet our baby girl. I literally just see pregnancy as something you must endure to get a beautiful baby at the end. I’m aware women’s bodies are incredible at reproducing but knowing this fact doesn’t help me enjoy or embrace it anymore. I don’t enjoy feeling constantly fatigued, having to give up strenuous exercise at the gym, constantly thinking negative thoughts and most of all the body changes you go through and the constant feeling of being all alone throughout. I’ve barely seen any friends this pregnancy, so feeling like a billy no mates, which has really been getting me down as I love to socialise. It’s difficult to plan anything with the husband working most evenings and friends living in the city, I’m stuck in the house at nights with boxsets feeling like a caged animal. This is what happens when you move 20minutes outside the city centre, even family rarely come to visit (although this could be down to our daft hyper dog). I plan to attend lots of baby groups this time whilst my eldest is in playgroup and look forward to making more local mummy friends. Despite my moans, pregnancy is very much worth the end the result. Cannot wait to have a newborn baby again, super excited! The nursery is now painted and this weekend I plan to wash and iron baby clothes and hang them all up. My son is the only one not happy about the babies impending arrival. He has mentioned numerous times he doesn’t want the baby coming and he plans to put her in the bucket or kick her. So much for us thinking having another child when our first reached 3 years would mean life would be easier and he would be helpful. I will need eyes at the back of my head. Between keeping a constant eye on my son and the dog, and soon adding a baby to the mix, I certainly will have my work cut out for me. The dog is my main concern, she is by far the hardest to handle believe it or not. The kids holidays have finally come to a near end and it now seems like its passed in a blink of the eye. I feel like doing a celebration dance as I survived!! I initially dreaded 7 weeks of full time parenting myself while being so far on in pregnancy, especially with my son going through a difficult naughty stage, but time passed quicker than I thought. As always, please be forgiving of my grammar, I do not have an editor. Sharon x
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